As we begin our awakening process one of the first things we begin to notice is the differences between the new way of thinking and being, and the old way. Though the new way has its pitfalls, you will definitely prefer it because of one very important thing—it enables you to pull yourself out of mental, emotional and physical distress created by victimhood.
Our awakening process causes us to lose friends, friends who wish to stay victims. As we move further towards enlightenment, we no longer resonate at the frequency of victimhood. Therefore, our friends and loved ones find no safe harbour in their friendship with us anymore. This is difficult for you even though you understand it. We are no longer mentally in step with the rest of the world.
Maybe many times you wondered if you were losing your mind. When you look at those you know who are living in unaware lives, seemingly unaffected by the changes you are experiencing, You wonder which of you is sane and which isn’t. As your world continues to separate into two different worlds, one being asleep and the other on the upward spiral to enlightenment, the idea of differing realities becomes very real to us. You might look at your asleep companions and wonder how in the world they can continue to live their lives oblivious to the changes taking place around them. To say they are asleep is an understatement. And though this understanding might help your state of mind, it most definitely does not bring relief and comfort to your heart. You feel the separation acutely.
You hurt from the knowledge that you have less and less in common, less and less to say to one another. You are drifting apart like two ships passing in the night and there is nothing that you are willing to do about it. For to do something about it would be to either let go of your present path and return to a total asleep life that would leave you emotionally and spiritually dead, or try to convince them to awaken and begin the spiritual path so that we can have something in common that is of interest to you both—something that makes both our hearts sing. As you can see, neither is a worthwhile option. The first one hurts you and the second one hurts them and breaks the universal law of free will.
So they might say you are crazy and need to check into a mental hospital. You can console yourself by telling yourself that one day, they might 'get it' too. And until that time comes, you must let go of your desire to be accepted by them.
Sometimes they put forth some pretty convincing arguments, so convincing in fact that you might find yourself giving yourself another good old-fashioned reality check. You might ask yourself 'why I am doing this?, why I am willing to hold on to nothing in order to attain a goal that I have no guarantee that I will reach, or that when and if I do, it will be all that I was told it would be?'
You will run through the facts in your head that you have accumulated for just such an occasion. You remember that you were told that it would not always be easy—that the path is narrow, rocky and full of pitfalls. You also remember those days when you have just come through another lesson and feel that blissful state of peace, or the prosperity that suddenly arrives unannounced but oh so welcome, or the synchronicities that bring some new friend and companion to your doorstep. Just a few of those memories and you are once again able to see and feel that this path, this goal is worth it, and you pull yourself together and continue on.
.. Tau Tia L Douglass OIO-KHTGP, CSsM&J.
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